I't been a while since I've posted again. Lately I haven't had much motivation to sit and compile my thoughts like this plus, I've been fairly forgetful lately. Hy hearing is still only slowing returning to me as I fight of my second cold of the year. I can't seem to get away from illness lately and it's the main thing that is really holding me back. I've been feeling pretty useless because of this. I've been staying up late, binge watching YouTubers, specifically Call Me Kevin, Plumbella, Lilsimsie. Sometimes I'm not even fully interested just stuck on a browsing loop, more so with Call Me Kevin's content. You may have noticed the other two are more Sims-focused. I'm not much of a fan of speed builds but like the odd one or two that have a challenge, but it's the stories and old game replays that have kept me coming back the most.
In other new, the band is progressing nicely. Kill The Moon's next gig is at The Chameleon in Nottingham next week and I'm betting on it being a good night. Certainly on to look forward to but I'm going to have to focus on picking my mood up for it to be really successful. Since about early December I've not even being trying to hide when I'm in an off mood, whether that be because of illness or not to the point that comes through in photos. I want to look like I'm having a good time like I know I am but it's been difficult lately. With a lack of routine except work it's hard to keep busy and adding illness into the mix prevents me even more.
Both of these colds that I've had recently have seen me lose my voice for a bit, coming and going. It's on its way back now but still not quite there. I have rehearsal later and I'm worried about doing more harm that good. I sing more often these days, in fact I'm singing the lead of one of the new songs that we're working on. I actually wrote it almost a year ago now to build up my repertoire for my album project and it quickly became one of my favourite song-babies. It's been slightly restructured to make more sense but I'm happy with it and more so, I'm proud that I now have the confidence to get up on stage and sing - with or without a band behind me. Although it's still not something that I do too often.
That's another thing. I've been wanting to "get out there" and play more open mics. I planned to go to one this Thursday but I don't think I'll be well enough. Plus, now I'll be going to another Notts In A Nutshell night at The Golden Fleece. I got into conversation with Bassey Easton, who wants to develop his sound with other musicians. I told him I'm interested although, KTM will still be my main love and focus. It think it would be good of my head to play something new rather than rehears the same old. I love what we do but playing the same thing all of the time does get repetitive and tiresome.
I can't wait to shake this cold and get back my drive. I feel like I'm really holding myself back at the moment but there's not much I can do about being ill.
