The eighth day was the worst and bares news that I'm still coming to terms with. I have fallen behind with my frequent blogging due to laziness but, now I feel like I'm missing something else completely. The good news is I'm away from work for just short of a couple of weeks before I'm due to enrol for my second year. I'm excited but, I can't show it. There are too many ideas inside my head; some useful, some more raging and self-destructive.
In terms of my summer research project, if I'm completely honest with myself I have been lazy with that too. I'm behind on my reading. Work has been slightly more demanding in terms of shifts which I can't say "No." to and in the time in-between I feel I should rest, although doing so causes more stress by not being productive. There is some progress however as last Thursday I conducted an interview with fellow band mate, Jake Marrion. This turned into a day of discussing band politics and what to do next and probably made me the most excited in a while, but the next day soon killed that off and I still need to transcribe that interview.
It's amazing how dependant we become for certain people in our lives that have more influence on what we do than others due to their kindness, selfless attitude and inspirational qualities.
I'm currently reevaluating myself and feeling that I need a new shoulder to perch on, but with our putting too much strain on their backs. I already have a good idea who that may be and of whom it will definitely not. I can sense already that this year will be more difficult with lesser support, but I did well in making the most of it in this last year which reflects in my overall grades. I am aiming for higher this year and nothing less, but I also want to offer my support to others where I can. In terms of projects, Kill the Moon are hoping to record soon, also hopefully at Clarendon. The plan in my head is to use RS1 and mostly do it ourselves maybe with a little help from AO or any students that wouldn't mind manning the desk and pressing the record button rather than running frantically between rooms.
I'm having to reimagine how this year could pan out. It's strange. I had a vague idea in my head before and now I have to contour a new one. I'll have to figure something out for The Nottingham Improvisation Club. I really want to keep that going, regardless although not until early next year to allow new students to get comfy rather than throw them in the deep end. Anyway, enrolment is the 27th of this month and I'm looking forward to it somewhat. I'm not as excited as last year, but I can see this as a recurring pattern from the times before where things get regrettably worse during academic years as time go by.
Hmmm...
