This Morning

I was up last night until about 1am working on a new song for my album project at uni. Meticulously editing midi data to that I'd played in to be in-time. It was a fairly complex piano part, not too difficult to play mainly problems with latency that put it askew. So, it was a late night and hell I'm feeling it this morning. Once I packed away, saved up and shut down my Mac, I relaxed with my iPad for a bit. It's kind of normal for me to still be awake going into the early hours now, like 3am but I found something last night that made me so angry, I'm not even sure it's worth the effort. This kept me up most of the night, once I found it. Something had resurfaced, a problem that maybe wasn't quite resolved but was made civil at least. The problem was meant to be dead and buried almost 5 years ago, but no this is the gift that keeps on giving.

I never thought I'd have to say this but I think now is the time to cut all ties with the past. Or as much as possible. It made me realise how easily researchable I am because of it and if an audiences views are corrupted and they figure that it is me it's not exactly going to be an easy life a simple re-published mistake. I'm going to be making changes to this blog page and slowly erase history for my own protection. The audience don't have a name, just a band name so it figures. I will censor old posts, delete the Facebook page (that's not public anyway) and maybe even try to delete the youtube videos. One things for certain is I need to try to get this video down that slanders me, if I'm unsuccessful at least I'll be protected without links.

I'm really not shocked that this has happened. It's almost like I've been expecting it, which is why I check up on a few people from time to time. I need to be the better person in this, but I'm not letting her get away with this. Hell no.

>edit: I've decided against deleting old posts because it just shows how much work and time I invested in this. What a shame.

Fun and Illness

This semester is starting to feel quite loose since I only really have to in on Thursdays for a full day. I do have other timetabled things throughout the week, specifically on Mondays and Tuesdays but there's hardly any point to them as not many show up and the Tutorial on Thursday is pretty late. There's another tutorial slot on Thursdays which makes more sense to attend since I'm in all day anyway. I seem to have clung to playing bass for the live performance module, it seems to make more sense and fit better with our arrangement including piano, vocals and percussion. Jordan has an interesting instrument, shaped like a guitar with the similar purpose of a cajon with added extra bits and it sounds pretty cool. Not 100% sure how it should be mic-ed up yet though but it really does sound great.

It has been a slow month, even though we made a lot of progress in our practice session last week. I haven't really focused on anything else. I was hoping to get all the bass tracks I needed to record done by the end of last week but I'm still trying to get it done this week. Motivation was the problem before and now I'm ill. Not as ill as I was this morning, but every time I sneeze or blow my nose my right eye twitches and quite frankly I'm sick of it already. I think it started from when I went out over the weekend